I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. a course in miracles What I’m about to fairly share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not consider anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents’peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.